Publishing my personal letters to my husband is not easy. If I wasn't fighting such a devastating fight, I wouldn't even have to consider it. But my goal is for you, the reader to know who we are. To know that we are very real, caring and loving individuals who are facing an unbelievable nightmare. So, here you go - my heart on my sleeve.
My personal Love Letters to Mark mailed directly to his correctional facility and shared with you here.
" Please stay strong in there. Please never forget that I am by your side. Please never forget that I would walk through hell for you. "
Please always remember that your inner strength needs nourishment as well. Now that our phone calls have stopped, I feel a little helpless and less in control of this daily reminder.
“I’m going to make my Dad proud!” Little do they know that they already have. But you wouldn’t believe how much they have stepped up their game! I think like me, they are powering through overdrive just to keep themselves sane.
" Knowing I am this close to you has me focusing on your energy. I wonder if you could feel it? I miss you so much! I wish you could be here with me now. You should see how many little, tiny people are making me smile. It’s calming. "
"To My Beautiful Wife"
I just got released from medical isolation and sent to a regular block. You can schedule visitation now!!!
I'll Always Be In Your Corner
Your strength strengthens me! Your fire fuels me! Our corner is wild and furious with a touch of grace, a well of hope and a spark of tenacity that is going to prevail!!!
"I Just Miss Everything About You!"
I sincerely miss you. I miss our nightly couch cuddles as we watched our shows. I miss our Saturday journeys. I miss your phone call every day as you called to tell me you were on your way home from work.
"Stay Strong In your Heart"
You need to always remember that and always remember that those who may doubt or criticize your actions were not filled with adrenaline like you were that night. They were not in that situation and considering the situation, I’m guessing that the majority of them will never be faced with it. Stay strong in your heart!
"This Won't Last Forever"
“FEAR IS GETTING WEAKER, FAITH IS GROWING STRONGER, THIS WON’T LAST FOREVER, WE’LL SEE A BETTER DAY! THE NIGHT IS GLOWING BRIGHTER, THE WAY IS GETTING CLEARER, THE STORY ISN’T OVER, WE’LL SEE A BETTER DAY!”
"I Will Never Get Too Tired To Believe In You"
So know this Mr. Ivie. I will never get tired of you. I will never get tired of this fight. I will never get tired of waiting for you. I will never get tired of being honored to be your wife. I will never get tired of the day-to-day grind that this entire family has been forced to endure. I will never get tired of believing in you! You are my world. My peace. My solace. My life. Just like I will never get too tired to breathe, I will never get too tired to always prove my loyalty by whatever means necessary!
"You Always Put Your Family First"
Last night when you called, you asked in the most sincere way, “How are you doing babe?”. Before I could completely respond, you reiterated with a softer and more loving tone, “Really, How are you doing?”.
"To My Husband, I Just Love You"
“I want to change laws that allow law enforcement to stack charges upon charges with the intent of system manipulation that coerce the innocent to take pleas like you did to protect their family. I want to change laws that require more definitive evidence against the accused.”
"My Husband, A Dying Breed"
“I was certain that day that you were one of a kind. Softly spoken, incredibly sweet, extremely romantic and very, very wise. I found a dying breed.”
"My Husband, The Eagle"
“Well, if it looks like an Eagle and soars like an Eagle, THEN IT MUST BE AN EAGLE!!!!!”
"Received from my Husband"
"All the time we have spent together keeps me going. There is nowhere in this world I want to be without you. Please give the babies extra love, hugs and kisses from Grandpa.
Your darling husband"
"I Got Your Letter"
“It’s difficult to breathe out here without you but I don’t feel intimidated or defeated.”
"We Will Never Turn Our Backs On You"
“I was released late in the day (I am not sure what the date was) by the bondsman. He was a very decent person and treated me very well on the ride home. I did not know what to expect when I got home. I wasn’t sure if family members were blaming me for what happened, and I was terrified that they would turn their back on me. You would think the ride home would be relieving after all I had just been through, but it was just as terrifying. When I arrived home, it was such an emotional thing to see my family all waiting to wrap their arms around me and make sure that I knew how loved I was and that they were all there standing by my side. They could not wait for me to get in the house. The all came rushing out of the house and wrapped their arms around me. It was so emotional for me. I could hardly even speak. I am pretty sure that I broke down in tears especially when I saw my parents were there all the way from Utah.”
"Hoping You Are Being Transferred"
~Your Faithful Soldier”
"Strength At All Cost"
“Help me to move, Help me to see, Help me to do whatever you would ask of me. Help me to go or God help me stay. God Help Me.” ~Plumb
"Against All Odds - Being You!"
“He was so impressed with the man who held him so tightly. He went on and on about how strong you were. He was so happy to see the man that he knew you to be standing there, against all odds, being you. ”